so im pretty much done with xanga i guess ill update every so often but uhh here the myspace.... http://myspace.com/neverr_look_back

comment it lovverrrs!    NTS<3

so i read elyse's entry and its basically all the same things im feeling...

     i just want everything to go back to the way it used to be... i miss so many things

                                                               lately me and elsye have been so close but me and erica really seem to be drifting apart... i miss all those nights at the GROVE... I wish alot of my relationships with people would go back to how they were  before... some of the choices i made i wish i could take back.

I really miss some of the people that i used to hang out with like every day ...ralph martin jay  but because of stupid things we did some things may never be the same

 Most of all i wish it was Summer. I love being outside all the time...it takes everything i have to wake up in the morning and go to school. I miss all those summer days and summer nights... and ofcourse everytime i think about summer matt comes to my mind and i miss it even more. Because of this summer im afraid to love, afraid to have a relationship because matt well he taught me soo much but lets just say he was my best friend in the world and now we hardly ever talk. I miss it so much and i want it to be summer so badd becasue i know this one is gonna be A-M-A-Z-I-N-G and ill want it to come back more then ever but i still want it so badd

lets just say im thinking too much too...

I just want it all to go back to the way it was but all the new good things to stay the same... i wish i could make things better with martin especially becasue ive known him for like 5 years and hes always been like a brother to me ... and hes graduating soon and things might never ever be the same becasue he'll go to college and make new friends and forget about his old ones like LG...

Also i want everything to go back to normal with my brother we used to be best friends now i feel like i dont even know him and like he doesnt love me anymore

    maybe things will get better

   this was from new years! I <3 her

SO

UHHHH

 VALENTINES

                 DAY

             SUCKS... </3

the only good part was this poem that an A-M-A-m-I-N-G boy wrote to me

I hate you for being so kind,

always knowing what question is on my mind

I hate you for wanting to care

Freeing my heart of its despair

I hate you for always being right

Never wanting to start  a fight

I hate you for makeing me wait by the phone

Never in life have i felt so alone

I hate you for always saying goodbye

Even more when you make me cry

I hate you for giving me a chance

Had my first taste of true romance

i hate you for finding your way inside

Never giving time to hide

I hate you for letting me dream

showing me how life might seem

i hate you for not setting me free

even more for loving me

i hate you no not at all

for with you in love i fall

                         ~DS

         ps: your the love of my life knowing you, you'll stay around me and take all you can bare. But just remember i'll always care...

edit:

NICKS HOME

and well from what i can tell back to normal ....hes a crazy little boy!

well lets just say that I adore these kids NICK & LEXI (ERICA'S little brother and sister)

  But i would like to ask one thing please pray for NiCk, over the summer he had a kidney transplant from his dad , Ericas step dad, everything was going good and he was becoming a happy little boy again until a couple weeks ago he got sick. He went to Hershey but there was nothing they could do for him there so they transported him to Pittsburgh. he's doing much better now THANK GOD but please keep him in your prayers THANKYOU...

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now,
even if we don't speak often,  please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, good or bad. When you're finished, post this paragraph on your xanga and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you!

TOMMOROW IS STEPANIE LEIGHS BIRTHDAY ! I love you hunnie and im so happy we became friends heres a quote poem i found:

lets become little old ladies together.
we'll stay up late looking at old pictures
telling "remember when" stories,
& laughing till our sides ache.
lets become eccentric together -
the kind of old ladies who take long walks,
wear silly hats, & get away with acting outrageous in public places.
& if anybody asks how long we've been friends
we'll say, "Oh forever ;; since before you were even born!"
let's become little old ladies together
because a friendship that's as special as ours
can only grow better through the years <3

I hope your birthday is AMAZNG JUST LIKE YOU...

               OK NOW HERE ARE SOME OTHER QUOTES